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To all those left here and who acutally read my posts - (which i dont think there is anyone left - but never mind)

If there is anyone out there on this friends list and wants to read my new crappy journal (although its just full of my thoughts about life and how im feeling - i rarely write about happeness in it) feel free to comment with your email address and i'll send you the link.

Hope your all well


Envy:Very Low
Lust:Very Low

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So where to start what to write?

I think my last post on here was bout how shit life was and how unhappy I was with everything, and to be honest nothing has changed!

Well one thing has - which is I've learned how to hide all this and am now able to pretend everything is great etc etc etc. And i know its not the best way to go about things but its the only thing thats keeping me going right now, there seems to be noone around to help me.

Actually thats a lie, there are fantastic people around me that want to help; john, cathy, sue, trevor are just a few to name - but for some reason whenever they ask me i just lie through my teeth which is just stupid all they want to do is help me - and with me not telling anyone - especially those who i mentioned above; just makes things even worse.

I had counseling last year for about 6 months, which sort of helped - but not much, so i stopped going. Noone knew i was having it so that made things even harder.

I've now started at Plymouth Uni, and to begin with things were ok, course was good people were ok, and i joined the ladies football team which is still good but things are still not good. I applied to see another counselor at the uni, and i attended for two of the sessions - but they just weren't going anywere and wasn't much point in continue them - so stopped going.

Dont really know where this post is going...if anywhere. I've been written this for nearly 2 hours now, and its not really covered anything which i wanted it too!

Well thats it for now, its really not going anywhere so i may as well stop while im ahead.

Current Mood: awakeawake

fuck you all. life is shit. havent slept for 3 weeks now. cant stop fucking crying. just want it all to be over. screw the world.

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who would know if i wasn't here any more

Current Mood: depresseddepressed

01. Tell me something obvious about yourself.
02. Tell me something about yourself that I don't know.
03. What is your biggest fear?
04. Do you normally take the safe route or the shortcut?
05. What is the one thing you want the most that you can't buy with money?
06. What is your most treasured possession?
07. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do the most often?
08. Tell me something about you sexually that I don't know.
09. Tell me something about you sexually that everybody knows.
10. What is your favorite lie to tell?
11. Name something you have done once that you can't wait to do again.
12. Are you the jealous type?
13. What is the one person, place or thing that you can never say 'no' to?
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?
16. When was the last time you cried?
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?
19. Name something embarrassing you did while drunk/high/whatever.
20. If you post this in your journal, do you want me to answer it?

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an "o'clock" to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal

Have been writting an entry all day - and I had to reset my machine to upgrade the security on it, and it erased all of my entry! - so I should have it back again by tonight - if I get my coursework done in time!

Well if there is any one left reading this then i am entirly supprised! I dont get a chance to update much, and then when i do i tend to think that know one really wants to read what ive been up to, so dont bother in the end.

Now ive got my loverly new computer, my iMac G5 (which cost a lot of money!!) ive got myself a livejounal posting widget. If you dont no what a widget is, its just a livejournal posting download, which is really cool, not a great explaniation - if your really interested i suggest going to http://www.apple.com/downloads/dashboard/ it should explain it better there.

Well i hope with this new tool it shall enable me to update more and start using this journal to my advantage.

Anyway for now im off to carry on watching The Peacemaker on BBC1 - I could be back!

Current Mood: blahblah
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